The after life

The after life of university.
where there lies not many photographs, or parties, or creative moments.
And where to not capture what it within.. is ok.
However, every so often i feel a slight pang, and miss for an almost ex lover.
I have a few snaps, that may have been seen on facebook.
But i have just remembered i have this blog, so i thought i would get back into it :)

music and career news to be updated soon xxxxx

For the love of darkness..

"The physicality of entrapment, consumption, and childhood fear, encased within a womb of bricks and furniture."

This series of images are titled: '32'
Being the number of the house i was born and lived in for 22 years.
Also being the stage (in weeks) of pregnancy when the foetus starts to recognize sounds, and physically kick out at the womb.

Lets delve in to a pool so deep, it's hard to know when we shall return.
For my head is a very strange place to be...

Themes within my new works are as follows:

Female body, space, childhood fear, entrapment, consumption, violence, lost, fallen, hair, Japanese/korean ghosts, trauma, fantasy, imagination, disability, furniture, darkness...

A taster of the work =]

And breathe..

Well i have not produced anything blog related in such a long time,
but then life and time have been spinning into a whirl wind of creativity that has been pinned down and caged for my portfolio.
Our graduate show is going up in london in less that 2 weeks.
Which is going to be one hell of an adventure.

I need to update my online portfolio,
i am currently making my own photographic book - using blurb.
Which is very exciting, i can't wait to see my photographs all laid out saying what i want them to say.

We had a professional practice day yesterday,
and i spoke to the chief commissioner from the national portrait gallery,
She said that my portfoilio was beautiful, and well laid out.
Also that my work was very strong, conceptually and visually.
This put a nice smile on my face =]

Who knows, maybe i'll be ok.

Me and my lovely boyfriend will be moving into our house in about 5 weeks,
big step, but we are so excited.
I cannot wait to never have to not wake up with him,
or fall asleep without him <3

I will hopefully put something visual up soon,
but for now, i shall watch friends, and then cook dinner for robbie-pants <3

Thankyou for reading.
xxxx

Question Time

Copied from Robbie, who said i should answer these questions too,

to take my mind off current stresses in life.

whilst he cooks me dinner

and cracks open the wine <3

Favourite things (- not including loved ones.)

In no particular order:

1. Music

2. Poetry

3. Lyrics

4. Photography

5. Drawing

6. Writing

7. Beer

8. Having the occassional Cigarette - Malbro lights please

9. Comedy series to cheer me up. Especially family guy, American dad, futurama

10. Instruments - i own 7 guitars, 1 piano, 1 keyboard, 1 violin, and crave MORE

Questions:

1. What is your current obsession?

Current, and general - photoshop.

2. What are you wearing today?

jeans, blue T, and cardigan

3. What’s for dinner?

Robbie is making me - Lasagne, Crispy potatoes, sugar snap peas, and garlic/cheese/chilli bread, WINE <3

4. What’s the last thing you bought?

Mini iphone. (well robbie brought it and im paying him back) xx

5. What are you listening to right now?

TV in the background. flatmates watching something

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?

he is my everything <3

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?

nice quiet area, good neighbors, great local pub, and friends close by. 4 bedrooms maisonette. double garage, nice garden, a dog and a cat please <3>

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer?

hair done, new clothes, new tattoo. <3

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?

disneyland

10. Which language do you want to learn?

french, binary ?

11. What’s your favourite quote?

No one is free, even the birds are chained to the sky.

- Bob Dylan

12. Who do you want to meet right now?

Regina Spektor, or Tori Amos

13. What is your favourite colour?

dark blue

14. Give us 3 styling tips that work for you.

lots of concealer, pretty necklace, make sure the boobs look good!

15. What is your dream job?

singer

16. What’s your favorite magazine?

dont know

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?

clothes. meal for me and robbie

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas?

sandles with socks. NO

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon?

i dont know. models in general. theyre told what to wear. they dont even know.

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?

Long, straight, quite large, funky - stands out.

21. What are you going to do after this?

dinner! Robbie! watch a film maybe

22. What are your favourite movies?

StarWars, Sweeny Todd, eternal sunshine etc..

23. What inspires you?

happiness & energy.

24. What do your friends call you most commonly?

Annie, Ani-Pants, Pop Tart, Chips

25. Would you prefer coffee or tea?

Tea, but i do drink and like coffee

26. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?

cry, listen to sad music, write songs, watch family guy, snuggle up with my baby xx

27. What makes you go wild?

people being rude, or not appreciating people around them.

28. Which other blogs do you love visiting?

im still working out how to follow and stuff, as im new. but robbies mainly. and alot of his friends write lovely blogs. xxx

29. Favorite Dessert/Sweet?

apple pie and cream =]

30. How many tabs are turned on in your browser right now?

7

31. Favorite Season?

all of family guy <3

32. If I come to your house now, what would you cook for me?

beans on toast. whoop

33. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?

just carry on with life and not let them have the satisfaction of seeing you sad.

34. What are you afraid of the most?

loosing people i love

35. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?

nice make up from last night. SMUDGE

36. What brings a smile on your face instantly?

saying something in a silly voice.

like 'mean', or 'baby'

37. A word that you say a lot?

and or the - probably to most spoken work!

38. What would you do if you were made President for one day?

get rid of certain people who dont deserve to be where they are.

take everyone i love for a fun day out

39. What is that one thing that keeps you going?

love

40. What word drives you crazy when you hear it?

? dont know

41. What's your least favourite character trait?

i sometimes get really stroppy and cant get out of it.

42. What do you get if you multiply six by nine?

54?

boo ya!

is dinner ready yet?

Oh, distractions..

Love Birds

So today was defiantly a 'write my dissertation day'.

However,

instead,

I have taken: Over 40 photographs,

and been wrapped in photoshop/composite ecstasy.

I have also joined Flickr http://www.flickr.com/photos/ani_pants/

The photography site.

I may now actually start writing,

But here are some of the images taken and created today.

Hope you enjoy viewing them as much i do making them.

This snow is not as good for my writing, as i predicted it to be!

but i hope you are all safe and well.

Hopefully,

by the morning, i will have atleast reached 5,500 words...

we'll see....

Just click to enlarge.

But if anyone can help me do this,

so that people can see them largish - but not steal them,

please let me know... lol.

Goodnight xx

An introduction.

I have just written a blog about everything,

and deleted it by accident.

So here we go again.

The main aspects of Ani Graves are:

Age: 22

Sign: Scorpio

Status: In Relationship (& its awesome) With Robbie Munn.

Job: Part time carer for people with mental and physical disabilities

Education: Studying a degree in 'Contemporary Photographic Practice'

What i do: Photography, Writing, Art & Music.

My photography:

My work revolves around self portraiture,

and the investigation into the inner psche,

with reference to greek mythology,

and 'the shadow',flowing alongside

the contours of the use of the psychological/spirtual mask of our true selves.

My main influences are;

Francesca Woodman

Sam Taylor-Wood

Annie Leibovitz

Gregory Crewdson

Zena Holloway

Just sit back,

& let your sins reflect upon your skin.

You can't hear a sound.

The peace of pain,

Is deafening.

My Music <3

I have been writing music & lyrics for the last 8 years or so.

performing on and off, when other commitments will allow.

My aim when i have graduated - Miss Anne Graves BA (Hons).

Is to dedicate myself to making an album,

and performing further afield.

Some of my music can be found on: www.myspace.com/anigraves

And, if you're interested,

here are some of my lyrics from a song called;

'Muted Colours'

'You're no longer here under,

my skin.

I lost you pacing spaces.

I even tattooed over,

places your touch had been.

I drank away your disgraces..

& i loved your muted colours,

and i loved your silver tongue.

That you locked into a thousand faces,

and then wore to fool everyone.'

So, that's what i do.

I like geeky things, and watching animated comedies.

I spend as much time possible with this man:

Love is a wonderful thing <3

Starwars + Star Trek = Awesome.

Photoshop is my homeboy,

and was even born the same year as me =D

And that my friends, is an introduction.

This has been Ani Graves.

Aka AniPants.

And remember

'Most of the shadows of this life are caused by standing in our own sunshine.' ♥